I feel that I am a failure at breastfeeding because I cannot provide for the requirements of my twins.I really wish I read up on breastfeeding while I was pregnant. A lot of my friends were telling me to breastfeed and I though it was so easy. I didn't know that it was really hard work and can be really painful.
I wasn't informed about a lot of things. My husband and yaya were not so well informed also. Hence, we went for bottle and formula feeding just 4 days after my babies were born. I felt so bad. They were crying and we thought they were hungry even after nursing. Plus I developed sore nipples at that time. After that, it was difficult to get my babies to latch.
Plus it was easier and more convenient to offer a bottle than to get them to latch. Still, I wanted to offer my babies breast milk. If I can't get them to latch, I will just pump and feed the breast milk by bottle. So I kept on pumping. However, I still think that the amount of milk I pump is not enough. The most that I was able to pump in a day is 7 ounces.
Now, I am feeling down again. 2 days ago, I was able to pump twice only as I went out. I was able to express 3 oz. only. Today, I've pumped thrice already but has been able to express 70 ml only or around 2 oz.
I'm feeling sad because I want to be able to provide breast milk as long as I can. What if my supply is starting to dry out already? It has only been a month and a week.
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